Insomnia Sucks!

So it's 3:17 am and I just can't sleep. So I figured that I would update my poor, neglected blog. There's also a few other reasons to add there. One is, typing helps me! When I'm anxious and concentrating on my breathing too much I just type. That way the focus is off my breathing and on to what I'm typing. It's a tried and true method for me.
Okay so what should I write about? Well how about my new bead release out? It's something that I've been working on for awhile now and this past week has been extremely busy making batches and more batches. Hopefully I can build up enough stock to last a little bit and then I can try and create a dry release so that people can mix up a small amount at a time. I think that would be a wonderful thing. It would save money for people overseas who pay an outrageous amount of shipping in the first place and also, how many times have you had bead release that dried up all the time? If you're a beadmaker that's constantly on the torch this might not apply but for me, this is something I deal with on a regular basis. (Yea, I don't get a chance to torch much.) Granted, I could, but  lately I have no motivation to do so.

So here's the story on the bead release as it stands now.
Mama G's Bead Release is in the house!! Yes, we finally took the plunge and started our own bead release. It feels wonderful btw!!!
This bead release is wonderful too. I was a die hard Fusion user. I loved that stuff. There was one drawback however. Getting the beads off the mandrel was a pain in the ______(Insert your own word.) I would always have to use pliers on the mandrel. ALWAYS! Didn't matter what size mandrel I used. Then of course the pressure I would put on the pliers always bent my mandrels. Oh yea, I'd still use the little buggers but of course, then I'd have beads that wouldn't come off the mandrel because of the bent part. I am so bad at throwing mandrels out and so I'll do whatever I have to do to strengthen them back up. Yea that worked. Sure it did! Most of the time, I took a hammer to the mandrel to get beads off or to get it straight. No it didn't work!
So off to the trash can they went.
Mandrels aren't expensive. It shouldn't have been a big deal but it was. More frustration than anything.

This new bead release eliminates that. They come of the mandrel with a slight turn of the wrist on the mandrel (without a pair of pliers on the bigger sizes) and they don't even have to soak at all. Cleaning is a breeze too! So forget all the other jars of bead release I have. This is the one that's for me, created by me and hopefully by you too! I never, ever thought I would ever find a release better than fusion. To my surprise, it was my own that somehow worked!

How great is that?

Wanna see the logo?

Isn't it cool?
So now with that said, I feel a bit better. Heating pad on the shoulders and listening to Air1 on the radio. Uplifting music always helps. You can't be down when listening to this station. You should check them out at Air 1  They aren't your normal praise station. Lots of great songs for all ages. Some even rock.
I think I'll try this thing called sleep again!

Heavy Heart

This week has brought some sad news that has me very down in spirit. My husband lost an aunt over the weekend. Granted, she led a good life and lived to be in her older years but it still has me bothered. My sister's husband just lost his sister who put up a brave fight with bone cancer.
My own sister is still fighting with ovarian cancer.
I really hate the word cancer and wish it could be banished from this world!!
It's amazing what this world concentrates on. We have million dollar trips to outer space to put satellites high in the skies above us. (Watching our every move). Come on, you know it's true. Just look at Google Earth!
We waste money on research that doesn't benefit anyone. Who cares if there's life on Mars? Who cares if they found another black hole inside a black hole? What does this do for me?? NOTHING!

Why not spend money researching a cure for cancer, leukemia, hepatitis c, fibromyalgia, arthritis, asthma, and countless of other diseases that are ravishing decent  human beings!
I am so sick of the priorites of this world and saddened that no one cares about their fellow man anymore.
Okay...rant over!

New Beginnings

A New Year! A New Beginning! I don't believe in resolutions. I believe in change but I feel that change should be made as we realize there is need for change. What does a new year have to do with that? Every year I wish the same thing. To be more organized, to finish what I start, to exercise more, to live more...etc.
Every year I break those thoughts within a few weeks in because life just doesn't work that way. Life is hectic to say the least. We do great for awhile and then things get a bit behind and were throwing paperwork in boxes because it's piled up so much that we just feel overwhelmed to file it all. And that's when it crumbles. From that point on to the end of the year it just spirals downward.

I decided this year I wasn't going to make any resolutions. I just want to strive to be my very best in all that I do. I also decided that I wasn't going to be so hard on myself.
Life is a gift and I sooo get that. I'm just going to wake up each day thanking God that I'm still here. I'm going to hug my children and my animals more. I am going to be thankful for all the good in my life and even all the bad in my life. I consider it all a blessing!

It's okay that I'm late on things and that I don't finish everything I start. That's the creative mind at work. It goes from one project to another as it see's fit. It doesn't have rhyme or reason, it just has passion! Motivation? HA! That's another word that's thrown out into the world. You can't be motivated without passion.
Today, I live my life the way I want to--not the way someone else wants me to.
 I think I'll be a better person for it!